Friday, June 29, 2012

Missed Beats

Life has given me a very hard kick. When I say that things are difficult right now, it is a huge understatement. My life has essentially fallen apart. Nothing was as it seemed; however, I had no idea. The last 13 years of my life seem to have been full of half truths and lies. I am completely overwhelmed and feel like I am out of my league. I am feeling my way through it, taking it all day by day. I know that God will help me through it and this too shall pass.

I miss blogging; however, I find it difficult to concentrate. Tonight I am forcing myself. I will not be defined by the enormous mistakes of another. 

I sadly admit that I have missed some beats with blogging my little mister's life. He has changed SOOOOO much during the last two months. Coop started eating solids way back in early May. During the first harsh hit of reality, I found comfort in making his food. He started out with Avocado and has LOVED it ever since!
I started out fairly slowly. Now King Coop enjoys solid food A LOT! His favorites are avocado, bananas, butternut squash, sweet potatoes, apples, pears, and cataloupe. He doesn't seem to like carrots, peas, mangoes, peaches, or green beans....but I keep trying :0)

Coop went from hating tummy time to spending a good deal of his awake time on his tummy. He can't crawl yet, but he is so close! He is really good at rotating around and rolling to where he wants to go. He is quite a mover. He also loves his saucer. He jumps a lot and now throws his toys. I am pretty sure he is playing fetch with me.
He is getting so much hair on top, if it were red, he would totally be Conan O'Brien!
Our cat Liono is super jealous of the time I devote to Coop. If I am on the floor with Cooper, which I am almost ALL the time....Liono is down there, too. He is always trying to get some of the attention. Coop LOVES that cat. He gets super excited to see him and tries to touch him at ever moment. Liono has become a good sport about the whole thing and will let Cooper grab at him and snuggle as long as he is getting rubbed by me, lol.

Five months came and went in a whirlwind. I returned to work full time :( and time seemed to fly by. Suddenly, my tiny little fella wasn't so tiny anymore. I don't have his full stats because there was no doctor visit, but I certainly could estimate. My guess is that he was about 17lbs 12oz and still long! He began wearing 9 month clothing and those little pork chop thighs could just barely fit in the Bumbo chair. He still hates wearing a bib and suddenly barely tolerated his swing....which is super sad for me! We stopped using a sleepsack and started just putting long sleeve pajamas on him and sleep started to get better. Here are some 5 month shots.

We spent the day at Perry Farm for the first time, took some really long walks, and relished in the beautiful weather! We also spent some time at my school.

This last picture was the day before my little miracle turned six months old. I turned his swing around and he fell asleep. I couldn't remember the last time he had napped in his swing. I LOVE seeing him doze in the swing, something about it brings me a peace and love to my heart. My little Coop-a-Loop and I are facing some major challenges right now, our lives are headed in a direction I hadn't anticipated, but I know that God will see us through. 


  1. I am so sorry for the difficult time that has been set in your path, but know that God will be there to help you through it. I will continue to send prayers up for you and Cooper. And he has just gotten cuter and cuter! What a wonderful and precious gift he is!

    Heather (

  2. Thank you so much Heather! I truly appreciate the prayers and kind words :)

  3. Oh, I really feel for you. I have thought of you often and hoped all was well. I will keep you in my prayers.
    God is with you. Your darling boy is such a cutie pie. I am sure he keeps you going.

  4. Shannon-
    I started following your Kindergarten blog this year and was excited to start reading about your journey with Cooper as my husband and I look to start a family. You have been in my thoughts often for strength in your recent events. Wishing you the best!

  5. I will be sending my prayers your way. I love both of your blogs and to not just follow your teaching journey, but also your journey through motherhood. He is growing so fast!!

  6. Shannon,

    I have followed you from the VERY beginning of your teaching blog and actually you were the first one i ritually "stalked!" I feel like I know you and I have never even met you! I was soooo excited for you when you were finally pregnant and Coop came along!! I know you are being very selective in what you say and it tears me up because I think I have a good idea of where you are going with and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and I know you will have the strength to get through everything and come out STRONGER!! Enjoy this crazy Illinois weather!!! XOXO

  7. love and prayers to get you through the extremely rough places life seems to send some of us.

    and thanks for the updates on cooper - proud of you mama for making his food! he'll be a little foodie in no time!

  8. I have enjoyed following both your kindergarten blog(as I teach kindergarten myself) and when I saw that you started this blog I was excited because I have a daughter that is about a month younger the Cooper! I also make my daughter homemade baby food and want to thank you for the idea of making avocados she LOVES them! I hope that you are doing better just remember everything happens for a reason and this to shall pass! Be strong ! Thanks for all the great products from you kindergarten bolg too!!!